[Hot TopiC] Love: EasY oR CompLicAted?

Relationships are never easy. Why? Because finding & keeping the right person can be a constant challenge. Doubt and fear prevent many of us from listening to our hearts. Sometimes we might think of problems which are not there. In another words, creating it or imagine about it and find faults with our partner. And that what makes us unable to love or be loved.

Ego? Many of us allow the ego to get in the way of true love. To Love is like a process which involves:

1.Learning to let go of past hurts and disappointments
2.Accepting and loving yourself
3.Challenging beliefs about who your partner should be and how he or she should act.

Dunno much to say but…

True love is more than attraction, butterflies in the stomach and a racing heart (so call adrenalin Rush).

It is about finding consistency, reassurance and trust in another person. It is normal to feel JeaLoUs. But sometimes things are so unPredictable.. relationships Will onlY remain constant with nourishment and care.

Well, what can i conclude? Basically..understanding each other needs…Give and Take…LoYalty.. is the basic things PLUS add the cheerful moment just to keep the SmiLe on Our loved one’s faCe

If you think you have understand about love, No..you don’t. cause nobody understand about love..So do i..It's so mysterious~

So my friends out there, if you think you have found the right ONE, keep him/her closed to you cause there is no other better way to love someone. Don't put lies and cheats in your plays cause you know the rules.

Last but not least "The best thing about the future is that it comes only one day at a time"..enjoy your day guys-Chad-

{wee~kend}

Morning sunshine~

When I woke up this morning, it was still raining. No wonder it’s so cold. It made me wants to pull my blanket and continue my sleep. But I can’t. I need to get up and go to cluster and do my final year project. Hopefully my silica tube is fully solidified.

Yesterday my friends and I went out for some chill out day. We hit the shopping complex with some exciting activities. We started our day with bowling. It was fun to see a bunch of guys especially newbie who so eager to hit strike but instead cleaning the “drain”. I have not been playing for quite long time so my record was not that good too. Twice I sweep up the drain. Hahaha. However there was some incident where it unpleasant to watch. Not for me. Just for a friend of mine. He met this girl whom my friend likes. U knows what happened. The girl was with her boyfriend. Ouch. That was really heart broken. I know how it felt.

Then next we hit karaoke. This was the best. I never thought all my friends were so cool. We sing and dance like the world is ours. Hahaha. There was even a scene where a group of girls knocking our door and blaming the other friends as if they didn’t do it. I guess they were surprise to see how a bunch of guess enjoying their K-day.haha.

Next was movie. We didn’t have many choices to choose. But still insists to watch any move that was available. So we chosen Madagascar 2:Escape to Africa. My expectation was high as last time I watch Madagascar 1, it was damn funny. But I was disappointed. Quite boring. So I end up messaging in the cinema. Huh.

Fuh. It’s 11.28 am now. Need to get ready for lunch and go for lab. So that’s all for today’s chapter. As usual quotes of the day: “People are like stained glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within”. Have a nice day folks. –chad-

[Dan Aku Pun]

Finally the exam is over. The last paper is always the toughest one. But I’m glad because I was able to answer almost 80% (You must been wondering where was the other 20%. *sigh* For God sake, I’m not G.E.N.I.U.S ok)

Somehow I felt lost, empty and my mind just could not function well. I’m supposed to be happy because I’ve finally finished my entire exam. Ermm. I guess I’m not. Have you ever been stuck by emotionless and you feel like you have lost the purpose of life (I know it sounds too dramatic but that is what I felt at the moment) There are other reasons behind my moody mood. I don’t feel to talk about it here. Just for the record, I’m just disappointed because of some people excuses. Why can’t you just be there for me when I need you just like when you need me? Damn. I really need a break. I wish I were at home now.

Since I’ve got nothing much to do, I took my guitar and played a few songs. There is one song that my housemate keeps playing all the time in his PC. It’s a slow song with simple lyrics. It’s definitely suitable for those not in the mood or having relationship problem. I enjoy the tune. So here is the song and the chords which I managed to come out with.

Band:Boi & Stef
Title: Dan Aku Pun

C G
Mungkinkah bila ku ternyata
Am Em
Membuka hatiku untuknya
F C
Salahkah bila kumerasa
F G
Ketika ku tak bisa


C G
Terasa hangat ku ketika
Am Em
Ku ada dekat disampingmu
F C
Walau masih memang bimbang aku
F G
Bolehkah ku merasa

*Reff:

C G Am Em
Dan aku pun masih mencintai dia
F C F G
Namun hatiku membuka pintu untuknya

C G Am Em
Memang diriku tak bisa tinggalkan cinta
F C F G
Namun hatiku masih memikirkan dia


C G
Terasa indah ku ketika
Am Em
Ku ada dekat disampingnya
F C
Membuat aku makin merasa
F G
Aku memang untuknya

*Back to Reff

F C
Memang benar aku masih memikirkan dia
F G
Namun salahkah aku ooo…

*Back to Reff

Enjoy the song. Last but not least, quotes for the day “Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it” –chad-

"Nothing is Impossible"

There is some interesting news in the paper today. From the front page to the end, everyone was talking about politics mostly on the run-up to UMNO general Assembly and the rumors of Hillary Clinton becoming the next secretary general for US. However, those are not who attracted me the most.

I was attracted to this small headlines “Hadi Shows he can score,too” on the page 4 from News Straits Times (Saturday,November 15, 2008). This report shows how the unfortunate child turns the word of “Impossible” to “Possible”.

Let me summarize the story for you. Muhammad Hadi Darus 12 years old who was born disabled without any hands and his fingers are attached to his shoulder still managed to score 4As and 1Bs in his Ujian Pencapaian Sekolah Rendah (UPSR) examination. Unlike his peers, Hadi would use his foot when writing notes or answering exam questions. He said during the 3 days examinations, he would climb three flights of stairs to the exam hall. What a touching story. Just try to picture yourself in Hadi’s shoes. Do you have the courage to do the same things? As a child, Hadi might have the biggest heart which full with determination and courage. Congratulation boy!!

Last words from me, "Count your smiles instead of your tears, Count your courage instead of you fears"..Have a nice day;) -chad-

exam fever~

Is this a curse or something? Why do I always get sick during the exam week? This is real exam fever. My temperature goes higher than 32 0C. I had just finished my 3rd paper which was English University. Just to make things clear, I was not sick because of this paper. When I woke up this morning, I was not feeling that good. My body was weak and I feel like puking. Maybe I got food poisoning, but then I only ate nasi goreng ayam masak kunyit for my dinner last night. It’s impossible to get sick from that

-yesterday-

Last night was a terrible night. I couldn’t sleep well because of the fever. I tried to sleep earlier so that I can get enough rest and hope to get better before my next paper on this coming Friday. Damn. I only have 1 day to prepare and now I still couldn’t concentrate on my study. Sick..sick..sick..Maybe tomorrow I should go to clinic after my “Thermoelectric” paper but then I’m currently in lazy mode. Huhu.-Today-

Tips: If you treat a sick child like an adult and a sick adult like a child, everything usually works out pretty well..huhu

I received this comment from her telling me that I’m such a “manja” guy (in other words, i'm such a baby. She was laughing as I posted the tips on my IM messenger. Haha. (Well babe, you don’t have much different from me. You’re "manja" as well.Ahaha)

I need to get back to study. Hopefully I can concentrate after this. zZZzzZZZz… Damn. Suddenly I feel sleepy. What should I do? Sleep or study? Let’s toss a coin. If “head” then I should head to my bed. If “tail” then I should get back to tail my study. So the result was…huh..no gonna tell you..you figure it out.zzzZzzzzzzz-chad-

::My liTtle Princess::

My niece called me while I was watching football match between Arsenal Vs Man Utd this evening. (For the record-MU lost). She used to call me and the first question is always asked whether I already had my dinner or not. But this time, it was unusual. The first thing that came out from her is telling me how she had failed in her mathematics examination. She was laughing on the other side as I was followed her. Then I heard my mum (her grandmother) followed us laughing at the back. My mum told me how confident my niece was to get number one in her class. She already mentioned what kind of reward she wanted from us. Haha. However I didn’t hear any disappointment from her voice. Maybe she’s still too young to feel the disappointment. After all she’s only 7 years old. How good it is to be a child. There is nothing for you to worry about. *sigh*

Well, then she suddenly pop up with a question about my ambition. “qq, what was your ambition when u were small kids? I told her that I wanted to become a doctor when I was a kid. But now I almost become an engineer. It’s hard to explain to kids especially to my little princess because she will never stop questioning. Sometime I just ignore her (how bad;p) But this time I gave her some advice to study and try to not play too much.. (OMG.I feels like old folks as I gave those lame advices to her. Damn. I guess everyone have to get used to it. Soon or later. right?) I don’t want to pressure her as my parents never did that to me. So perhaps this is how things work. But not all the time.

I closed with my niece as I am the youngest in the family and do not have any younger brothers or sisters. I’ve been baby sitting her since she was 3 months old. Basically it was an early education on becoming a future father (That was what my family said back there. Hahaha. How dare they teach me that education in such a young age.15!!) However I’m not the one who always spoilt and pampered her. My dad does that as she’s the only granddaughter. Me? Well, I’m a fun uncle who gives rewards when you behave and get punish when you are not. But between my niece and me, we are closed to each other. Its always fun with her. She loves to sing and very fast in catching up the lyrics. Watching her growing from day to day..oh..I miss that.

That’s all for today. As usual, quote of the day is “Failure is not about falling down, but not getting up when you fall down” ..sweetdream princess oXoX ;) –chad-

<-- Her picture when she was 5 years old, playing with my cap..

embrassing and fun ;)

They always say examination will only test what you know on the subject. However those which come out on the paper are always beyond our knowledge.BEYOND.

I started my day as usual. Waking up with my mind focused on my 2nd paper of the week. Oh yeah, by the way, I have an appointment with doctor at 10am (This is where the fun of day come from)

I went to the hospital around 9 o’clock in the morning. I registered myself to the nurse who I called “auntie”. (I used to call her madam, but she insisted me to call her auntie) She is a friendly and cheerful lady. Since I’ll be going back to my hometown very soon, she wanted to order a “Kopi Tenom” from me. I without resisting accepted her order because after all it’s not going to burden me.

My turn was 35 and the current number is 34 (huh..luckily not that far because I need to get back and study). When my number was called, I entered the room. WOOW..I was quite surprised. There were many people inside there. I thought I was the only patient? Yes I am. The rest are trainee doctors and of course with the certified doctor (Hopefully he is)huhu. They were having like some sort of class with me as the test subject.

So I was there to explain what I feel on my skin problem as if I’m the doctor (damn!!) I was told by the doctor that my skin is currently very sensitive to sunlight (*OMG*). The reason? I exposed to much to sunlight when I play”F.O.O.T.B.A.L.L”. That is why some sun burn effects appear on my skin. Therefore the doctor recommended me to use sun block particularly “L’Oreal”. Again in slow motion..S..U..N….B..L..O..C..K. damn. All the trainees were looking at me because I made this unconvincing look to them. The nurse said, “nowdays even guys are using facial wash”. Yeah whatever; like I have the choice to choose. Maybe I should wear helmet too when playing football. Oh this is all crap.

My choice of helmet:i was thinking of choosing the watermelon helmet.Nice.hahaha

When I stepped out from the room, I was surprised because there was a trainee doctor waiting for me. She has that mixed looks with fair skin and nice smile. She said “excuse me, do you mind if I asked for your number?” She looks stumble and kind of shy in front of me. Then she offered her hand for shake. I reply her with a hand shake too with a question. “Erm, any reason you asking for my number”? (Just to make sure I’m not in any prank Tv show. I should have answer her better ;p) Well her name is Reena@Ryna. From what she told me in a cute way (especially when she said she has no idea what she is doing now, asking for my number) she just wants to find someone to hang out with and to talk to. Well, for sure I say YES;) (Nothing harm coming from knowing a new friends, right?;p) So I gave her my number. She also gave compliments because I look friendly and speak good English (Am I? I wonder since when my English is good?) I was expecting her to call or texting me. If she braves enough to ask for my number, then she should have the guts to call/text me. Erm..just wait and see..only time will tell..

Last but not least, a quote from me, "you can’t go through life being scared because if you do, you’ll always wonder “what if” …

Thats all for the day...-chad-

-SePi-

~Morning early birds~

My mind was disturbed when I woke up this morning. I had a bad dream. It’s hard to tell but it’s true. I still feel the pain after all this time. Maybe I’ve forgive but I’ve not forget. I have to get things back to track. Before I went to bed last night, I told myself to focus on what matters. My 2nd paper “Selection Design” is just around the corner. I need to get myself prepared for the war but somehow I just lost my track and my mind is not in the right mode. How life will be much easier if there is a “button” to click to change our mode. Damn it!! I need to get out of this place.

So many things happened this few weeks. I do not know how and who to tell. Maybe blogging is the only way that I can be true and transparent to myself. No hiding in this place. It’s not because I don’t have any friends to tell, but somehow those that I can count on are not in the same part of the world as me except her. *sigh*.I was shocked and sad when I heard the person that I care and love hurt by this thing called “Love is blind”. I tears me up inside to him treated you this way. You used to tell me to be strong and bold when making decision. But do you? If it hurts then why do you still hang on the relationship? I wish I can save you. You told me how much you would love me if there is no “if” between us. Maybe the only reason we can’t be together is because we don’t want to hurt other peoples feeling. But is it worth it my dear? Maybe if we were brave enough, we’ll find the happiness that we are looking for. I know I can’t push things too hard, not because I don’t want to, but because I can’t. I know how much you love the relationship and I don’t want to be just another jerk that broke it. I’m not that kind of person. I rather wait. If it takes you forever to realize, then I’ll wait. For the time being, I’ll have to walk away. Hope this can ease the pain that we both feel. But dear, I miss you so much*sigh*.huh. It’s enough all the love things for this time. Need to get my head clear. (Take a DEEP breath)

Last night I watched this film “SEPI” recommended by my friends. I’m not that love story fanatic fans but somehow it managed to get me into the story. I was caught with this quote: "untuk apa bertemu kalau hanya untuk berpisah" (Translation: why do we meet if we were not meant to be together) I personally think this movie is one of the best drama produced by Malaysian film industry. It has what it takes to be in same class as “a walk to remember", "notebook", "Cinta" and "love". The script was fabulous and I love the sequence. I rated it as 4/5. Compliments for all the cast as well as the directors and his crews. You guys rock!! Hope to see more from you guys.

That's all from me today. Last words from me, " Sometimes it takes what's broken to become whole again" -chad-